I start Graduate School in one month from today. Looking back, it feels like one of those decisions that "seemed really good at the time." Right now as I try to gear up for this change, I'm starting to get really nervous. Do I remember what it was like to sit in a lecture hall for 2 hours at a time? Staying up all night to get a paper done. Plan a wedding? Oh, wait, that's the new part. I actually feel really comfortable with the wedding stuff right now. We have a church and reception hall booked, I'm looking for a photographer. Then I can have some fun and think about the dress and other decorative elements. But school is starting to worry me. I've already taken some of the classes they recommend and it seems that very few courses are night classes. I NEED night classes as I work full time. When I was an undergrad I could waltz in and out of work as needed, but not now. At least I work close to the U and don't have to drive 3 freeways (and a collapsed bridge) to get there anymore. I'm just starting to get stressed out that the "2 year night program" won't work out like that anymore. To top it all off, work is been extremely busy and I don't know how I'm going to get it all done. Honestly, I have been waiting for this stress to kick in and was hoping that I wouldn't start freaking out. Clearly that's not happening.
I just keep repeating "2 years, 2 years". It seems feasible and 2 years can fly by quickly (is that a good thing?). But then I think about it, 2 years! Writing papers, going to lectures, highlighters, reading, falling asleep while reading. But then its advertising and communications, stuff that I do everyday! It should potentially be interesting and something that I enjoy learning about. I'm just mostly nervous that I won't find any classes that I like and that I'm going to have to work late everyday to make up for the fact that I have some silly class in the middle of the day that I didn't even want to take in the first place. I worry too much and I know it.
Now, I'm off to prove that people do chores on Saturday and have fun on Sunday. I hope I'm right!
1 comment:
Hey Heather...grad school isn't that bad. I am going on my second year of weekend and night classes and while it stinks to give up your time, it is a lot different when you go back to do it than the first time around. Good luck! Keep me posted on it!!
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