Depressing Thought.

The company I work for moved offices in 2007. We transitioned to an "open work space" environment. Everyone had a window view, and we were surrounded by floor to ceiling windows. We've watched the new twins stadium be constructed right outside our building. It's been nice. Of course, in these tough times, we're also doing everything that we can to save some money and that means condensing some floors. There are only about 6 people in the company that have offices (part of the "open work space" plan is that everyone has the same desk set up), and 3 of those offices are moving to the floor I sit on. Right now, I can turn my head and check the traffic of 94 as it enters onto 2nd Ave/4th St. But next week, I will turn my head and see a newly constructed office. I never realized how nice it was to be able to see outside during the workday until I could see outside. It's mostly just really nice to have natural light lighting up the office, but alas, our run of that will be over soon. A few of the other offices in the building are glass, so they don't block the light as much. But, I have a sad feeling that these offices will be solid walls and our nice bright work space will be turning into a sad dark work space.

You never realize how much light can make you happy until its gone.

Today is a sad day in my cube.

A relaxing state of mind.

For the first time in a great while, I'm feeling pretty calm and not really stressed out. Granted, it's only Monday, so this could all change mighty quickly. I'm actually trying to kill a couple minutes before I head out of work to bowling. Yes, bowling. There is an advertising bowling league that takes place on Mondays and since I got a bowling ball for Christmas (from my parents), I'm trying to get as much use out of it as possible, and I just like bowling (and its work paid for). I probably should be heading to the gym instead to kick up training for my 10 mile race in March- 7 weeks away. Unlike for my first 1/2 marathon, I was just interested in hitting my miles each week, now I want to actually "train". As in, have a goal for my workouts instead of just finish them. But alas, I'm going to go bowling where there is a lot of sitting, eating and drinking. At least my one arm gets a work out...

Hopefully I can make it to the gym in the morning so that I don't have to spend all of Tuesday feeling guilty about not going.

Apparently when I'm killing time, I don't have anything interesting to post, or perhaps my posts are never interesting... I'll contemplate that question another day.

Thursday?

I don't know where the time is going this week, but some how its already Thursday. My to-do list at work is growing like a weed and I have no idea how I'm going to get it all done. Right now I'm too exhausted to think about it anymore. Hopefully I'll be revived tomorrow to get somethings done. Of course, I can't go to sleep before watching Conan.

As soon as the late night drama of NBC started to unfold, of course I was hooked. I spent 6 months of my life working on NBC and NBC properties and spent hours brainstorming ideas for Leno, Conan and Fallon's shows and how to promote them. I spent too much time trying to explain to everyone that the overlap of the three audiences were much smaller than we originally anticipated. Of course there was more overlap between Conan and Fallon's shows and Leno skews to an older audience... At the time I thought the same person will not watch all three shows, but they would end up splitting up their viewing, but all three shows would get watched. But then again, I thought Leno's show was actually going to be good...

I watched the first episode of Leno, the one with Jerry Seinfeld, some comedian at a car wash, a heart felt apology from Kayne and a performance with Jay-Z. It was painful. I never watched again. Clearly I wasn't the only one who felt this way. Obviously I don't do programming for NBC, I only got to tell them about their viewers for 6 months, but they've messed this one up big time. They're going to lose all their Conan fans, and while I dislike Letterman, I may allow him to humor me as I fall asleep. On that note... gotta go, Conan's on!

My thoughts on NBC are to be continued...

There goes your social life.

Roughly 5 months ago, I wrote this post about how relaxed I was just working and running. I can't help but laugh at how I feel now. I still love the fact that I'm not in school and just have to focus on work. But all I have time for is work. When I started working again, I thought "I'm not going to give up my free time," "I'm not going to give up my weekends for work," etc. I was going to take a stand and if I didn't have time to get everything done, I wasn't going to do it. Of course, that mentality has been thrown out the window along with any semblance of a 'normal' work schedule. I always go in spurts of loving and hating work. I like what I do, I just don't like how long it takes to get everything done, or the mass quantities of things that need to get done. C'est la vie. It's a time of recession, I should just be thankful that I have a job again, and I am. I just miss my free time.

But then again, I'm only one week back at work after having two weeks off. Once things are caught up, everything will be manageable again, right? Right?!

Scratch that.

Yesterday, I was all for a spring marathon, today, not so much. I started looking into some spring races and decided that they can be quite expensive. There are not any races close to where I live, so we would have to drive to the race, stay in a hotel, buy food, the race fees, etc. It all adds up and can take up the whole weekend. The part that seems the least exciting- sitting in a car after running for 5 hours when all I want to is lay down and take a nap. I also started remembering my training runs once I got over 13 miles and recalled how not fun they were. I like the mid distance races and enjoy running them, so it makes sense to stick with that for a bit. I've already signed up for 4 more races this year (3 of them 1/2 marathons) and told myself that I don't need to sign up for anything else. But, this is what happens- I get an idea in my head and I want to follow through. Its a challenge- can I do it? Slowly, I'm learning that I do not need to follow through on every crazy idea I get. I don't know why I can focus on something small, like getting faster, perhaps that will be my next goal...

Someday I will know my limits and be able to know when to stop. Someday.

Party like its 1999.

Ten years ago, my sister and I threw the best New Years Eve Party. My uncle let us borrow his house, er, small mansion, to have a party. There was an indoor pool, sauna, whirl pool, basketball court and we invited a friends band to play... along with 30 or so friends to ring in the new year. It was a great night and I knew it would probably be one of the most fun new years I would have. NYE becomes a night with so much expectations, yet rarely ever lives up to it.

This year was just as I wanted it to be. A nice dinner with Adam and a relaxing night at home. We didn't have to deal with crowded downtown or paying expensive cover charges. It was just what I needed.

I don't have any resolutions this year, but I'm sort of toying with the idea of a Spring marathon. I'm running a 1/2 in June... but for some reason suddenly have the urge to do a spring race, a long race.

This might just be too much couch sitting talking... we'll see what happens.