In tweleve hours...

...I will be married. Right now, I can not sleep. I'm not worried about a lot of things for tomorrow, but there are a few that keep coming back.

My brother for starters. He had some lovely things to say to me at the rehearsal dinner. I asked if he wanted a ride to the church and he flipped out telling me that he was a "big boy" and could take care of himself. I would like to think that is the case, but since he usually asks for a ride and has a tendency to need assistance from others, it didn't seem like a normal Shawn statement. He also thanked me for scheduling up his whole day. Shawn, if my wedding is that much of an inconvenience to you, then just stay home. My dad made a short toast at dinner and said "and now Shawn finally has a brother." Shawn felt the need to say, yes, that's great, but if I had to pick it wouldn't be Adam or something along those lines. It was really heart felt in a way only my brother could ruin a moment.

In the same realm of my brother, we never "rehearsed" the receiving line, in fact we never discussed it. I wrote it in my schedule of the days events, but we didn't discuss the logistics and how it will happen when the time comes. My brother (hopefully) will be the one that goes back into the church to dismiss everyone and then we will be in the "lobby" area. I'm pretty sure we will need Wade to bring is car around so when we come out of the church it will be there for us with prime photographic opportunity. Hopefully this can all get conveyed to everyone and it works out.

I am sort of excited about my church entrance. Everyone walks in and then the doors close as I wait outside. Then my two best friends will open the doors for my grand entrance. I'm getting pretty jazzed for that. I will be with my dad and the last two people I will see before heading in are my friends so I hope it will be very calming.

I dropped off some stuff at the reception site tonight so I got to see it all decorated, it really looks nice. I'm very excited to see it all completed tomorrow. What can I say, I'm a sucker for white twinkly lights!

This whole experience feels so surreal. I was never one to sit and fantasize about my wedding day, I always assumed I would get married, but never really thought about how it was going to happen. I think it had a lot to do with the fact that my mom let us play dress up in her wedding dress when we were kids. Not lying- she hemmed it for us so it fit us when we were 5 or so. I also wore it for Halloween when I was 15. Needless to say I never really thought how my own wedding would go. For the past 6 years I knew I was going to marry Adam and that I wanted it to be in Spring, but that was it. I have those two elements and the rest sort of just fell into place. Now I think I just need the weather to cooperate with me today. Here's hoping for partly cloudy and no rain.