Routan Boom

When I was waiting for Adam to purpose, it seemed as if everyone else was getting engaged or married. It felt like I was surrounded by happy marital couples, or at least marital couples. Near the end, it was getting quite frustrating and over whelming. Now, I feel like I am surrounded by babies. Yesterday, my friend Randy at work put a "Parenting" magazine in my mailbox, then sent me a link to routanboom.com. I found out 2 people my age are expecting this week, an old co-worker and a friend from high school. A friend from college is due in December and 3 other friends had babies this spring/summer. I don't want kids right now. I feel like there is still so much that I want to do, grad school alone is enough to put me over the edge. I'm just beginning to think that on some subconscious level that I do want one. I know I'm still too selfish to have a child, I don't think I could even handle a dog. I would just like to stop being surrounded by babies. It's just getting ridiculous.