It's officially been two weeks.

It's 12 minutes after midnight, making it Thursday and 2 weeks since I got laid off. It's been one week since I had an interview and my final paper is due in two weeks. For some reason I'm only dealing with time in weekly increments.

I have discovered that being alone with my thoughts is a dangerous situation. I can't turn my head off, it just keeps going and processing and today, I kept thinking about "What do I want to do with my life?". For some reason, what I want to do seems dependent on what's available. If I get the job I interviewed for last week, I will totally love it. But, I also just applied for a job at the U of M (perfect timing now that I am almost done with my education!!) as a communications manager for the theatre arts and dance department. Yes it entails all of the communications skills I have acquired over the years, but it has the hours listed of 8:30 to 4! A start and end time that is very desirable. Today I was thinking about what I loved to do and I kept coming back to dance. Granted I'm a few years out of practice, but as I have been getting back into shape its something that I want to do again. So, when I decided to check out job postings at the U and saw that one, it seemed like a perfect fit. We'll see about the pay as it said DOQ, which I have now discovered means "Depending on qualifications". Of course I want to use the skills that I have learned over the past 4 years and continue working at an agency, but at the same time having time to relax makes me want to have a good work/life balance-- hence applying for the U of M job. A generic communications job. This was the job I feared when I got done with school 4 years ago, now I'm okay with it as I could actually do it and would have a lot of fun with it. There was also a job as an admissions counselor- that appealed to me too. I just remember what a frightening time starting college was and not knowing what to expect. I guess part of me would like to help students in that capacity.

I really need to just focus on finishing my paper and not worry about what to do with my life right now. I should spend my time writing the best freaking research paper the Strat Comm department has ever seen and not worry about what I should do with my new found degree. I should also keep running, because that is one of the only things keeping me sane right now.