These last two days are kicking my ass.
Yesterday, Adam got laid off from his job of 7 years.
Today, my director (also my immediate supervisor) resigned.
It's only Tuesday. WTF.
We're going to be fine in regards of going from DINK to SINK (double income no kids to single income no kids). We did it two years ago and we know we can do it again with some cutbacks. This is Adam's chance to find a job he loves. He knows exactly what he wants to do, now he just needs to go do it. Obviously not the ideal situation, but I know it will work out in the end. And seriously, getting laid off in the summer is pretty freakin' amazing. I sort of think everyone deserves to have a couple months off every 5 or so years to rejuvenate. Naturally, some sort of sabbatical would be a better option, but unemployment works too. Anyway, we're very optimistic about the future.
Today sucked. The news dropped in the morning, right before a company meeting. I was blindsided. I semi-thought something was up, but pushed it out of mind since I didn't want it to happen or think about it. Last week another director of mine left the company and these two directors are the people I work with ALL THE TIME. I'm a team of one, but they were my superiors that I talked my projects through. The people that really know what I do and while I worked predominately alone, I knew I had both of them for support when I needed it. Losing one was enough, but both is just too much for me. I started crying immediately- in front of my department and the president of the company, and for the most part haven't stopped all day. I had an immediate feeling of abandonment. Working alone is the least favorite thing about my job, so having my two directors leave, it felt like I was orphaned. Left alone to fend for myself. At 10am this morning, that was WAY too much for me. I spent most of the day trying to navigate what all the changes mean and while it feels like a lot now, I know things will be ok. As I keep thinking about the news, it's still bringing me to tears. I'm hoping by tomorrow I'll have some more composure and can get through the day. My emotions are running wild and I can't even properly convey them and it's hard for others to understand what I'm going through. For most of my co-workers, nothing will really change for them. They have teams to rely on, right now, I have no one. I already feel like an island in my department, today I became an orphaned island.
I know things will get better, with time, they always do. But for only being Tuesday, this has been an incredibly long week.
I'm off to Chicago tomorrow to visit some friends and Lollapalooza myself. Hopefully skipping town will help me deal with all of this.
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