It's no lie that I'm busy right now. Everyone things I'm crazy to work full time, plan a wedding and go to grad school. Yes, I am a little crazy, its not ideal, also not my choice. I've been planning on grad school for 2 years, so I wasn't going to move that back a year, especially when its only a two year program to begin with. I also wasn't going to push wedding back any farther since we've been together for 5 years, no one (mostly me) wants to wait another 2 years for a wedding. Thus leaving me with a year of my life I would prefer to skip over. As we get ready to send out our "Save the Date" cards, we argued over with picture to go with. Adam's argument of "it's too personal" becomes invalid when I mention the fact that these people will be attending our wedding. How much more personal can we get here? First kiss, first dance, unity candle... all of it INTIMATE! A wedding is an intimate occasion. Even ours despite the 200+ people that have found their way on the guest list. Right now 198 people are family and the other 30 are our friends. These are people that have known us a long time and they can see Adam kiss me on the cheek.
Today has been a day from hell. Scrambling last minute to get information for a client presentation for tomorrow. I stayed late, didn't get home until 7:30, eat and relax for 10 minutes then look at some wedding stuff. I'm also the one that needs to study for a final on Thursday. Adam is playing video games right now and I am fuming over everything that I need to get done. He is in a different place. He found a photographer and requested information to be sent to me. Thank you, because I don't have anything else going on. Appreciate it. I just sent it back to him and asked him to look at it. Based on the gun fire I hear from the x-box, I can tell he's really immersed. I know this is a conversation I need to be having with him, but I think I needed to get it out and organized before I started going off at him. I just won the save the date argument, so I think I should wait a few minutes before I ask him to help out. No, I'm not nagging, and yes I won an argument.
I know after this week, I will be done with classes for a month and will be able to relax a little. But at the same time, I will just have to immerse myself with wedding details. My mom can't seem to offer up any sort of suggestion other than, "can't you find something cheaper?". If I found something cheaper, don't you think I would have bought it?! Her only question is: did you find...? If I found anything you would hear about it because I would probably be asking for some sort of monetary donation for the cause.
I have six more months of this shit.
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