One week later and people have already dropped their fitness goals. My own presence at the gym has been known to be sporadic due to my hectic schedule, but I do my best. I went last Wednesday to a spinning class and couldn't believe how many people where at the gym. Every treadmill taken, classes completely full, it was typical January 2nd. In only a week, I've already started to notice the drop off of people. Personally, I do not think I have made a new year's resolution for a few years,when I did they are always about: be healthier, workout more, etc. What's the point in writing it or saying when I'm pretty much constantly thinking it anyway? I suppose this year I have a different goal- Look good in my wedding dress (and a swimsuit). I have 5 months to look the best I possibly can and it's completely attainable. I want to look good and feel good about myself/figure. I am not committing to a weight loss, but committing to feeling good. That will also most likely include- not over indulging in alcohol, something I have been known to do on more than one occasion....
One thing I have noticed after several years of being in a committed relationship, it's very difficult to focus on yourself and you pick up all the bad habits of your partner. Adam eats healthier because of me and I eat worse because of him. I can't blame him completely, I love food. I love to make it and eat it, so I contribute to this downfall as well, however he makes it very difficult to turn away a pizza when I should probably have a salad, or at least a vegetable. I love stir fry and he dislikes 90% of vegetables. Needless to say, unless I want to start creating two meals every time I cook something, someone has to cave and it's usually me!
I can't seem to focus on myself without alienating Adam. If I continue the schedule I am currently adapting, I will be happy and he will not. My grad school classes start up in 2 weeks, which will take up my Tues and Thurs nights again. I have bowling on Monday, so there's 3 days out of the week that I am busy after work. My best option is to go to the gym in the morning, Mon, Tues, & Thurs. Try to go Wed post work, leaving me with Friday being the only weekday with out something scheduled. I don't mind being busy in general, but that leaves me no time to see Adam. Me being proactive about my health will only cause him to be frustrated at me for choosing the gym over him. In reality I am choosing a "healthy" me over a slobbish me. Of course he wouldn't see it that way.
I just don't understand why it has to be one or the other. If I find balancing my time this difficult, I can't imagine what it will be like when I have kids. I think my best bet is for Adam to come to the gym with me. I highly doubt this will take place, but it would be the best of all worlds for me. I just hope I can keep this schedule up during school. In college, I used to have cheerleading practice at 6am, classes all day then work till 10. This schedule has me home by 9. I did it then, hopefully I can do it now.
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