Adjusting.

I feel like my life has been a constant set of adjustments happening lately. New job is a huge adjustment. Anything "new" in life generally is, but when it is something that takes up min 8 hours a day, it's hard not to fixate on it. However, when I compare my new job to a new baby, it pales in comparison for the time investment. Whatever, just let me go with it. I like order in my life. I really like schedules and mapping out my time. I like to know when things are happening and when they are do (actually doing them is another issue...). Not having order stresses me out. It makes me not think clearly and just fumble around. I spend too much time stressing out about what I have to do, then actually doing it. Homework does this to me all the time. I'll start fixating on how much I have to do and when I'm going to do instead of just tackling it a little at a time.

I'm also adjusting to being back in school after the few weeks off, but at the same time to being almost done. 87 days until my last final, 83 days till graduation, 124 days till I defend my thesis. I can't escape the fact that I am SO close to being done, yet so far. Images of my life pre-grad school keep flashing back. I get so excited to have the free time again. Going for a run downtown after work, because I could. Socializing mid week with friends. I miss being able to concentrate on one thing and only one thing. With my classes, it feels like 3 full time jobs. Or at least 3 constants that need my attention and brain power. It will be 4 once I start my thesis and 5 if I want to put any effort into my own life. I'm pretty sure I've married the most patient man in the whole world to put up with my constant stressed out life. I just keep thinking in 12 weeks, my classes will be over and I will at least get my nights back.

It really is the little things in life keeping me going right now.