Wednesday, December 14, 2005

Regret.

I went and saw Ice Harvest the other day (John Cusack's new movie). It was sort of a work sponsored event, minus the work people. (If we do random activities this week, we can get points and in turn enter a drawing to win an ipod nano and other fun prizes). So, I went by myself, which is nice to do every now and then. I had a lot of things on my mind when I went to the movie, and had a hard time paying attention. A couple of times I was tempted to just walk out of the theatre- not because the movie was bad, just because I had things that I wanted to get done. When I go to movie's and my head is spinning from ideas/thoughts, I find myself taking notes from the movie. Like I'm going to get another meaning out of the movie. I'm not sure, but this is what I wrote down:

"it's futile to regret...different choice, same result"

The ever so handsome Mr. Cusack's character was telling a story about fraternal male twins (naturally my interest is peeked). The story was one twin was very law abiding and followed all the rules, etc. The other twin did whatever he felt and was in and out of jail, etc. Both of them died young a day apart from each other. In essence it doesn't matter how careful you are in life, it's not going to change your destiny. Live a happy life and don't have any regrets. I think everyone has some regrets, but I guess the biggest thing is avoid the big regrets.

Today I was listening to Paris Texas, one song played about 4 times, I don't know how or why, but the lyrics were "I never want to live my life saying things like 'I wish I...'"

It just seems like a lot of things are telling me not to regret my life or aspects of my life. It's kind of like when you read your horoscope for the day, you try to apply the events that have already happened to the 2 sentences that will happen to you that day. I guess it just depends on what you choose to pay attention to and how you want to interpret it.

If I choose to listen, my 'signals' are telling me "no regrets."

1 comment:

Kate said...

Interestingly (or perhaps not), I was thinking of regrets yesterday and today, totally independent of reading your blog. Because I definitely consider my motto to be "You regret the things you don't do more than the things you do," I almost find it impossible to have any regrets. Even as I think back on actions that weren't the smartest, I've learned from them, right? I don't think are meant to dwell on our past "mistakes," if one even wants to use that word.